Migraining

Yesterday I had one of the really bad migraines. Thankfully they’re not often this bad, what I’d call a 9/10 on the pain scale. I have a lot in the 5-7 range, which is annoying but not debilitating, or at least not completely debilitating. Yesterday I could only keep my eyes open until 6:45, and I woke up at 4:15am with the pain only slightly abated. It will pass. It always does. Tuesday and most of Wednesday I didn’t even have a migraine, and both those days were sunny and 50 degrees here in Boston. So I have that lovely recent memory to help keep me from despair. Today might be a wash, who knows, tomorrow might be, too. But there will be another lovely day at some point. All I have to do is wait for it.

I’m starting to think it might be time to do a GoFundMe. I’ve been struggling financially for three years now, and not able to work as much as I need to because of chronic injuries. I mean I’ve been working a ton on my own projects, writing, the workshop, etc. but that's so far not a gold mine. In November I finally got a job that I can do at my current level of disability, tutoring and playing games with a girl who is home from school this year with medical challenges. It’s enough to pay the bills, but I’m still struggling with paying down the debt from the past three years. It might be time to ask for help. I don’t know. I’d rather work for the money, but sitting here in pain reminds me that I’ve already been working, already been doing the best I can.